Well it's that time of the month again..
(Pause for the male readers to cringe)
No, not quite THAT time. The time when, the last two months in a row, I failed to update for nine consecutive days.
And yes it does correspond with PMS time. I can feel some depression creeping up, and only just now realized I've forgotten the prozac for the last two days at least. I think the latter is caused by the former, and not the other way around. It's like the evil depression fairy is sitting on my shoulder saying, "Don't take it now. You can take it later." (As if I'll remember..)
I'm grouchy, too, and things are more annoying than usual. (For "things" read "Hubby".)
It's interesting (to me, anyway) how my hormone-related mood swings are reflected in the journal. For the first three weeks of the month, everything is upbeat and flows easily.. after about the 20th, I don't want to do this. I'm forcing it today because I want this to be here too, so please forgive me if it's boring/gross, depending on your point of view.
(Men, feel free to skip the next paragraph. Or even two. You've been warned.)
I just turned 48 this month, and haven't missed a period yet. I don't think that's unusual, as the average age of menopause is at least 50 (I think?) and menopause itself is usually drawn out over months or years. My periods started changing in my 40's becoming more and more difficult. (I won't go into detail 'cause the women KNOW and the men don't want to.)
I think I'm also starting to get "hot flashes".. I'm still walking around in tshirts, barefoot, when the rest of them are all bundled up, and am constantly flinging open the windows. I just feel HOT and my favourite fantasy is to rip off my clothes (in the most acceptable PG-13 way of course) and roll in the snow (which we don't have any of, yet.)
Many women my age are being given the birth control pill by their doctors (not exactly the same as post-menopausal hormone replacement therapy) but I would have fairly strong reservations about that. First of all, I take enough pills, between the prozac and occasional antihistamines and advils. Second, I don't like the idea of stopping after a couple of years "to see" if you've hit menopause yet. That can't be good for the body. I don't need the pills for their primary purpose, as my tubes were tied years ago. I'd love to see an end to the monthly symptoms but not at the expense of screwing things up. (On the other hand I'd gladly take HRT after menopause if my doctor convinces me I should, as there are many health benefits. I'm due for a checkup soon so stay tuned..)
In other news..
I understand there was a report on the dangers of cell phones on TV last night. I didn't watch it. On purpose. I'm not pooh-pooh'ing it, not at all.. I simply DON'T want to know. There's just too much to worry about. I don't use my phone anymore anyway.. Older Son took it (and is paying his share) so of course I need to worry about him, but an average of 10 or 15 minutes a day can't be too bad, can it? I wonder if the scare is being heightened by the traditional phone companies...
OH NO, paranoia too??